Anger and Forgiveness

Anger is a very powerful and disruptive emotion, especially anger at another person. If it is allowed to brew and manifest itself in your heart and soul, I have found that it eats away at your soul. To hold anger and hate agaisnt someone is a very very unhealthy thing. It is this thing that just sits and brews in your heart, and it really brews very long and hard. While it brews, it destroys alot of things in you that it is good, the capacity to love, your humilty, your patience, your understanding and all the graces of God. It even blocks you from receiving God's Divine Mercy.

I've recently been very angry with a few people, for the past month or so, and I've comed to realised that this anger, resentment , and hate was eating away at my soul. It was making me exhausted, and it was tiring me out, just thinking about it. It limited me to show my love, and understanding towards other people, and slowly I found myself getting obsessed with it, neglecting the beauty of life.

It was commonly said, to err is human to forgive is divine. I have experienced that to received forgiveness is an even more beautiful thing. To receive forgiveness, from anybody, is equivalent to receiving God's mercy. I've experience that God's love, mercy and forgiveness is such a beautiful thing, that I cannot describe. It is this feeling for pure love and contentment.

As I've said, I was angry at a few people recently, and I found it was very unhealthy for me . A priest once told me , that anger leads to hate, which leads you to dispise someone. I went through that journey, and I didn't like it. I decided that enough was enough. If God can show me his Divine Mercy, I will trust in Him to grant me the graces of mercy. I went to the people who I was angry with , not to demand and apology, but to seek their forgiveness. I did not want them to bear the anger and ill will agaisnt me like how I beared it agaisnt them, and I wanted to start the road towards reconciliation. I went to apologise to them for my actions and anger I held towards them .

To me, personally , when I made this decision, and subsequently acted upon it, it brought down barriers that was blocking me from belonging. It allowed me to see the beauty in the person, no matter how much I was angry at that person, and it allowed to realise the challenges that person faces. Yes to forgive is divine, but to receive forgiveness is some thing that words cannot describe !

Spiritual Attacks

It is often said, one of the greatest things the devil has ever done was to make the world believe he doesn't exist. The concept of spiritual attacks and spiritual warfare is relatively new to me, yet by discernment and reflection, I have been able to see the various attacks that the devil does, to distract you from your every day task. Simple matters which ordinarily we'll wave it off as bad luck , or the other person is just being an idiot.

 

It is said that both the devil and God knocks softly at the door. It is true. While God knocks softly and waits to be let in, the devil will not wait. He will find any means and ways to get into your life, either directly or through other means. Temptation and anger are one of the tools that the devil will always use. Simple things such as a driver on the road not giving way, and you are angry at him, allows the devil to manifest his works in your life.

 

In Choice, I've found that the devil will stop at no means,to attack us, as we prepare for the weekend. I've seen that various circumstances on how the devil can attack our lives, as we prepare for Choice. It is actually quite amazing, but you also realize how deceitful his actions can be. It is like someone trying to manipulate your life. I've also learn that prayer is a very powerful weapon agaisn't the devil. It nourishes your soul, letting God into you life. When God is in ever more present in your life, it is even harder for the devil to get in. Subtlely , you will begin to notice  and realise the works of the devil and discern what is right and wrong.

 

I've often listen to the priest, during his homily, that when you love God, you'll eventually despise what is wrong. That is very true. I've also learnt that constant prayer and relationship with God allows you to learn and love him more. He is always there to love you. It is up to you to accept this love. He loves us so much, that He can never force his love unto us. He wants us to give it freely back to him from our hearts, when we are ready to accept Him. The main difference is one will manipulate you in anyways, while God waits for you to let him in. Till then , it is much easier for the devil to knock even louder, and who would you let into your soul ?